What can one do with the fire that burns them from within. The fire that urges them to fight, fight for something good and worthwhile. And what if you cannot find anything worthwhile to fight for? What if you are just clueless, directionless, absorbed in everyday's mundane tasks, looking for a reason to go on. You feel like all the potential you have is getting wasted day by day because you don't know what you want.
Once you had dreams, dreams so great that every second of every day felt bursting with energy. And then life knocked you down hard. You gave up for some time. You did just let go. And then somehow you got up. You survived. But in the process lost that gleam from your eyes. And you lost the belief in your dreams. You learnt to compromise, now you give up easily. And the most frightening part is that you have accepted this method of existence as your reality. Along the way you took steps which cannot be reversed.
Sounds like everyone's story right? Well, to me, it sounds a little like one story which is close to my heart, but with a happier ending. The story of one of my favorite movies - TAMASHA!
Ved, the terrified, oppressed little boy who has learnt so well to keep his thoughts and emotions hidden goes to Corsica, meets Tara, and the world explodes. With millions of colors and lights, just for them. They get to live in a bubble just for sometime, where everything was bright and beautiful. Where they were as happy as one could ever be. Content in each others company, in each others silences. Those parts of the movie always leave me craving for such days, where I will not have a single thing to care about, just lazing out in a field somewhere in the middle of nowhere.
And then reality strikes and they get back to their ACTUAL lives. And then you get to see the contrast. Tara maintains an illusion of that bubble in her life, still snatching some moments of that blessed content, not with Ved but with his memories. Ved goes back to his life and surrenders to that alternate reality which is indeed the reality. While some may think of Ved as practical and Tara as a dreamer, they should not forget that only dreamers get to realize their dreams.
And so, one day, Tara walks across her dream again and finds Ved. But guess what, he is not the one she had been with for so long, he is just the shadow of the man she loves. One who has stopped believing in himself because no one had ever believed in him. When Tara tries to make him realize who he was, who he can be, his first instinct is to fight back and fight hard. You see the struggle of a man who is afraid to hope, afraid to think. And thus he pushes Tara away.
And then, you see the slow but mesmerizing transformation of Ved to Don again. Its a painful yet beautiful journey of self-realization. At last emerges a person who is not afraid of being himself. Who is able to accept himself and thus is able to turn himself into his own best possible version. Last but not the least he wins that one thing from the world which he now truly deserves, his companion and soulmate, Tara.
Only after accepting yourself for what you are and what you are capable of being, you can accept someone else in your life.Think, how can another soul know and understand you when you yourself are not capable of that. And if by some miracle, someone like that appears on the horizon, you will not only try to negate their thinking but also your own life. And there is nothing more maddening and scarier then that. I think I have committed this same mistake partially. I realized that while writing this down. And I intend to handle this. Lets see how that goes
-Charu
Once you had dreams, dreams so great that every second of every day felt bursting with energy. And then life knocked you down hard. You gave up for some time. You did just let go. And then somehow you got up. You survived. But in the process lost that gleam from your eyes. And you lost the belief in your dreams. You learnt to compromise, now you give up easily. And the most frightening part is that you have accepted this method of existence as your reality. Along the way you took steps which cannot be reversed.
Sounds like everyone's story right? Well, to me, it sounds a little like one story which is close to my heart, but with a happier ending. The story of one of my favorite movies - TAMASHA!
Ved, the terrified, oppressed little boy who has learnt so well to keep his thoughts and emotions hidden goes to Corsica, meets Tara, and the world explodes. With millions of colors and lights, just for them. They get to live in a bubble just for sometime, where everything was bright and beautiful. Where they were as happy as one could ever be. Content in each others company, in each others silences. Those parts of the movie always leave me craving for such days, where I will not have a single thing to care about, just lazing out in a field somewhere in the middle of nowhere.
And then reality strikes and they get back to their ACTUAL lives. And then you get to see the contrast. Tara maintains an illusion of that bubble in her life, still snatching some moments of that blessed content, not with Ved but with his memories. Ved goes back to his life and surrenders to that alternate reality which is indeed the reality. While some may think of Ved as practical and Tara as a dreamer, they should not forget that only dreamers get to realize their dreams.
And so, one day, Tara walks across her dream again and finds Ved. But guess what, he is not the one she had been with for so long, he is just the shadow of the man she loves. One who has stopped believing in himself because no one had ever believed in him. When Tara tries to make him realize who he was, who he can be, his first instinct is to fight back and fight hard. You see the struggle of a man who is afraid to hope, afraid to think. And thus he pushes Tara away.
And then, you see the slow but mesmerizing transformation of Ved to Don again. Its a painful yet beautiful journey of self-realization. At last emerges a person who is not afraid of being himself. Who is able to accept himself and thus is able to turn himself into his own best possible version. Last but not the least he wins that one thing from the world which he now truly deserves, his companion and soulmate, Tara.
Only after accepting yourself for what you are and what you are capable of being, you can accept someone else in your life.Think, how can another soul know and understand you when you yourself are not capable of that. And if by some miracle, someone like that appears on the horizon, you will not only try to negate their thinking but also your own life. And there is nothing more maddening and scarier then that. I think I have committed this same mistake partially. I realized that while writing this down. And I intend to handle this. Lets see how that goes
-Charu
What a gripping gluesome blog, a rare and unfiltered , non sugared narratives of pathos !
ReplyDeleteIn 10 years of blogging , I dont know why and how , despite having saved it in my favourites , missed reading it ..intend to read every post as my reading priority for the rest of October !
More Power to you Charu, keep writing !!