memories

"one of the main reason why people hold on to memories so tight is because memories are the only thing which do not change when everyone else does."

(anonymous)

my state of mind

everything in life including our relations and emotions is temporary. people and situations which once seem to be the essence of life are no longer that important. even pain is temporary. i once again went through the same book in which emotions depicted are very close to my life but the path which its characters followed is far way from my principles and priorities in life. the oneliner which is stirring my soul since past few days is as-

"विषाद भी टिकाऊ नही हो सकता, विषाद भी दंभ है।"

my wounds seems to be healing as the time passes by. but any resemblence to the past, whether it is a situationor an individual brings back tons of memories which are hard to suppress and equally hard to face.
god, just give me more courage so that i can face my present more positively and happily. AMEEN!

kya kahen.

बरसे बगैर ही जो घटा घिर के खुल गई
एक बेवफा का अहदे- वफ़ा याद आ गया।

आश्चर्य की बात है की यादों का मौसम से कितना गहरा ताल्लुक होता है। ज़रा से बादल घिरते ही कितना कुछ याद आ गया। यही यादें तो जीना मुश्किल किए हुए हैं। पता नही कब तक इन यादों के दौर चलेंगे।

A SIMPLE THOUGHT

a simple but strong thought-

" it really hurts when someone you know changes to someone you knew."

just this much for today.

ye kya hua?

today i am not going to analyze any geet or ghazal or book as my doctot has advised me not to give any stress to my brain. recently i was declared to be sick with migraine. now only god can help me. i have to bring my habit of thinking to a full stop. i dont know how am i going to do this. till now no one knows that i have started blogging. i dont want anyone to know this. how on earth can ever a person can stop thinking. i dont do it in my spare time as a hobby. it comes naturally to me. now everyone, my family and my friends are behind me always shouting, " see, you are thinking again." what can i do. i am not permitted to read, write, switch on my computer or watch tv. so the only thing which i can do now a days is to think. so i am thinking about the causes of my stress. this has grown to be another stress for me.
i dont agree with the doctor that the major reason behind this disease in headache. i have read that its a heriditary problem. papa had it so any of us had to get it. unfortunately i got it. mom says its not a misfortune. the reason why i got it and my siblings didn't is my habit of thinking. my mom is surely a genius. but she also couldn't tell me a sure-shot way to stop thinking. besides this i also dont know what that i am thinking is causing this problem. this is another reasn to think for me.as the pain is still there after 10 days of medication, now everyone is worried that there can be some other problem or better to say that the disease was not diagnosed properly. now i have to go for ctscan tomorrow.
best of luck to me.